Post by NELSON TRACE on Aug 18, 2011 21:56:20 GMT -4
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[/style][style=margin-bottom:-13px; line-height:15px;]'cause i've been silent all my life
friends are worth it[/i][/font][/style]
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Friends are something Nelson rarely finds. This isn't a fact that exists solely because he's poor socially, or because no one likes him. It's because of his personality. To limit damage he feels to his emotions, he's locked them into his heart and covers everything with a layer of cheeriness. Since a friend to him is someone who he enjoys being around but also understands him, there are very few people who are friends. Simply because it is a challenge to understand one who hides so much.
Nelson doesn't go outside too horribly often, as the world is full of dirt and germs that would quickly set off his OCD. Most of the time when he leaves home he's not very social either, he won't speak to or interact with anyone unless they come to him, this is mostly out of habit but is also a small defense mechanism. When he does interact with someone Nelson uses that fake personality. He smiles and speaks with a cheery tone, only faltering when it comes to messy or dirty things which he tends to avoid and panic over. If he and that person get along he's earned an acquaintance, but not a friend. He may tolerate them or even enjoy being around them but they don't know him by any means.
Most of the time any relationship stops at acquaintance. Nelson may never see this person again or he and that other person may be content with the current relationship, especially when the other person believes they are friends. Friendship can still be achieved though. If Nelson and this other person spend a lot of time together they can slowly become closer. That is of course, if that person can pry Nelson from his obsessive cleaning and constant worrying long enough to spend some quality time together.
If this person and Nelson spend enough time together they may become closer, and Nelson may slowly let down his cheery facade. This poses a challenge for the acquaintance. As they become closer Nelson will slowly stop trying to seem so cheery all the time and may allow things like his worry, sadness, and anxiety float to the surface. They've always been there and things like his anxiety were probably painfully obvious, but the traits like his sadness, his defensiveness over his emotions, and his incredibly sensitivity, will all become more and more clear.
The acquaintance who may or may not be used to this behavior will have to adjust if they wish to further the relationship and will probably have to help him with these problems multiple times. If the person proves they can at the very least deal with his true personality and even comfort him when it's taken control Nelson and the acquaintance may truly become friends. Though the relationship may be shaky even then, and Nelson will always be nervous.
aqcuaintances are open and friends are open to acquaintances
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Friends are something Nelson rarely finds. This isn't a fact that exists solely because he's poor socially, or because no one likes him. It's because of his personality. To limit damage he feels to his emotions, he's locked them into his heart and covers everything with a layer of cheeriness. Since a friend to him is someone who he enjoys being around but also understands him, there are very few people who are friends. Simply because it is a challenge to understand one who hides so much.
Nelson doesn't go outside too horribly often, as the world is full of dirt and germs that would quickly set off his OCD. Most of the time when he leaves home he's not very social either, he won't speak to or interact with anyone unless they come to him, this is mostly out of habit but is also a small defense mechanism. When he does interact with someone Nelson uses that fake personality. He smiles and speaks with a cheery tone, only faltering when it comes to messy or dirty things which he tends to avoid and panic over. If he and that person get along he's earned an acquaintance, but not a friend. He may tolerate them or even enjoy being around them but they don't know him by any means.
Most of the time any relationship stops at acquaintance. Nelson may never see this person again or he and that other person may be content with the current relationship, especially when the other person believes they are friends. Friendship can still be achieved though. If Nelson and this other person spend a lot of time together they can slowly become closer. That is of course, if that person can pry Nelson from his obsessive cleaning and constant worrying long enough to spend some quality time together.
If this person and Nelson spend enough time together they may become closer, and Nelson may slowly let down his cheery facade. This poses a challenge for the acquaintance. As they become closer Nelson will slowly stop trying to seem so cheery all the time and may allow things like his worry, sadness, and anxiety float to the surface. They've always been there and things like his anxiety were probably painfully obvious, but the traits like his sadness, his defensiveness over his emotions, and his incredibly sensitivity, will all become more and more clear.
The acquaintance who may or may not be used to this behavior will have to adjust if they wish to further the relationship and will probably have to help him with these problems multiple times. If the person proves they can at the very least deal with his true personality and even comfort him when it's taken control Nelson and the acquaintance may truly become friends. Though the relationship may be shaky even then, and Nelson will always be nervous.
aqcuaintances are open and friends are open to acquaintances
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[style=margin-bottom:-13px; line-height:15px;]i feel numb most of the time
enemies are boundless[/i][/font][/style]
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When it comes to the lower forms of dislike. Those people who he can't tolerate or just dislike being around. It's simple and almost foolishly easy. Be consistently dirty, do things that gather too many germs, make a passing homophobic comment, push him around a little, get him dirty or mess up his possessions. All of these can gather dislike and put you on a list of people he avoids more than the regular passerby. In most cases cleaning up when you're around him, or atleast keep grime to a minimum, can help with any dirtiness. A simple apology can fix other screw ups. Either way, until you do you will be intolerable.
If someone likes to push a bit more instead of making up with him, Nelson will see them as worse than intolerable. This is where things move onto being plain disliked or being impossible to even suffer through. Nelson doesn't hand out this status as easily. This is where people who push his buttons without rest, who mess up him and his possessions even after being told to stop, those who may swing a fist at him, or simply verbally degrade him go. Bullying him will quickly earn you a spot here, even if you are someone new. If this person is truly homophobic that puts them here as well. If someone means well but constantly triggers his OCD and causes him to panic, or don't mean well at all and do the same thing, they will earn places here as well. It takes more effort to make up for these, and until one does they will be greatly disliked.
Enemies is the highest form of dislike with Nelson. This is reserved for those people who believe it's fun to push him around. Those who think that abusing his OCD is funny or who think they have the right to consistently bully him, or think that enough homophobic bullying may "fix" him. When people reach this point there's very little chance of turning back, and a lot of apologies and making up must be done before they'll even become neutral again. Those who he dislikes the most and trusts the least are known as enemies and will be avoided at all costs.
all forms of dislike are open with reason[/style]
When it comes to the lower forms of dislike. Those people who he can't tolerate or just dislike being around. It's simple and almost foolishly easy. Be consistently dirty, do things that gather too many germs, make a passing homophobic comment, push him around a little, get him dirty or mess up his possessions. All of these can gather dislike and put you on a list of people he avoids more than the regular passerby. In most cases cleaning up when you're around him, or atleast keep grime to a minimum, can help with any dirtiness. A simple apology can fix other screw ups. Either way, until you do you will be intolerable.
If someone likes to push a bit more instead of making up with him, Nelson will see them as worse than intolerable. This is where things move onto being plain disliked or being impossible to even suffer through. Nelson doesn't hand out this status as easily. This is where people who push his buttons without rest, who mess up him and his possessions even after being told to stop, those who may swing a fist at him, or simply verbally degrade him go. Bullying him will quickly earn you a spot here, even if you are someone new. If this person is truly homophobic that puts them here as well. If someone means well but constantly triggers his OCD and causes him to panic, or don't mean well at all and do the same thing, they will earn places here as well. It takes more effort to make up for these, and until one does they will be greatly disliked.
Enemies is the highest form of dislike with Nelson. This is reserved for those people who believe it's fun to push him around. Those who think that abusing his OCD is funny or who think they have the right to consistently bully him, or think that enough homophobic bullying may "fix" him. When people reach this point there's very little chance of turning back, and a lot of apologies and making up must be done before they'll even become neutral again. Those who he dislikes the most and trusts the least are known as enemies and will be avoided at all costs.
all forms of dislike are open with reason[/style]
[style=margin-bottom:-13px; line-height:15px;]lower i get the higher i'll climb
love is the sweetest[/i][/font][/style]
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The first kind of love that Nelson may experience is what many would call a crush. It's a minor feeling of affection usually earned through physical appearance and little true knowledge of the person. Being around someone he has a crush on may cause Nelson to become flustered or easily knocked off his emotional balance, though it is rare for his cheery facade to let up. Crushes are rarely acted upon as Nelson usually has no clue of his crushes orientation and even more rarely knows if he truly feels for them. This is the absolute lowest form of love and is known as a crush.
When Nelson learns more about a crush and it leaves a positive impression, or he becomes attracted to an acquaintance, you get the second form of love. Most would call this love. Though a better name for it with Nelson is true attraction. It's at this point that Nelson can tell he truly holds affection for this person and that he may be able to pursue a relationship with them. When around someone he holds true attraction for Nelson may act nervous, stuttering and seeming to choose his words wisely. Though it's slightly more likely, Nelson won't usually act on these feelings. His cautious mind will inform him of that small seed of doubt and the chance that he may be wrong. Though, if the person he holds attraction for acts on it they may attempt a relationship. These are trial lovers, and they may not stick together.
The final form of love for Nelson is simply that, love. When Nelson feels great attraction to one's actions, personality, and just the person in general, love will come about. This may come about when Nelson falls for a close friend or when someone in the second category of love proves themselves to be more. It is incredibly challenging to get to this stage simply due to how close one must be to him to even give him the knowledge available for his heart to react in this way. This is the only form of love he'll act upon, but also the one he'll hurt the most from if it falls apart, or if it's shot down and never allowed a chance. When he becomes partners with someone he feels this true love for they are lovers, and Nelson will work hard to keep the couple together.
Crushes are open, Trial Lovers are open to acquaintances/crushes, and Lovers are open to friends/trial lovers.[/style]
The first kind of love that Nelson may experience is what many would call a crush. It's a minor feeling of affection usually earned through physical appearance and little true knowledge of the person. Being around someone he has a crush on may cause Nelson to become flustered or easily knocked off his emotional balance, though it is rare for his cheery facade to let up. Crushes are rarely acted upon as Nelson usually has no clue of his crushes orientation and even more rarely knows if he truly feels for them. This is the absolute lowest form of love and is known as a crush.
When Nelson learns more about a crush and it leaves a positive impression, or he becomes attracted to an acquaintance, you get the second form of love. Most would call this love. Though a better name for it with Nelson is true attraction. It's at this point that Nelson can tell he truly holds affection for this person and that he may be able to pursue a relationship with them. When around someone he holds true attraction for Nelson may act nervous, stuttering and seeming to choose his words wisely. Though it's slightly more likely, Nelson won't usually act on these feelings. His cautious mind will inform him of that small seed of doubt and the chance that he may be wrong. Though, if the person he holds attraction for acts on it they may attempt a relationship. These are trial lovers, and they may not stick together.
The final form of love for Nelson is simply that, love. When Nelson feels great attraction to one's actions, personality, and just the person in general, love will come about. This may come about when Nelson falls for a close friend or when someone in the second category of love proves themselves to be more. It is incredibly challenging to get to this stage simply due to how close one must be to him to even give him the knowledge available for his heart to react in this way. This is the only form of love he'll act upon, but also the one he'll hurt the most from if it falls apart, or if it's shot down and never allowed a chance. When he becomes partners with someone he feels this true love for they are lovers, and Nelson will work hard to keep the couple together.
Crushes are open, Trial Lovers are open to acquaintances/crushes, and Lovers are open to friends/trial lovers.[/style]
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